My husband told me why he cheated on me

It just came to my attention that my husband has been cheating on me on and off for 2 years. He started cheating on me while I was pregnant because I didn’t feel like having sex due to pregnancy symptoms. He cheated on me with two different women. The first girl was a stranger he just met when he was out one night. But there’s this one girl in particular that he keeps having sex with. They’ve been friends with benefits for almost a year now. I asked my husband WHY. WHY WOULD HE DO THIS TO ME. We have a family together, we built a life together, and he threw away 8 years for a girl that hasn’t even graduated college yet?

He said to me, “she’s beautiful. She’s quiet, she’s simple, she’s not annoying. She doesn’t nag me. She doesn’t argue, she’s not combative. She’s not fat and she’s not lazy. She’s fun, she’s spontaneous. I forget about my troubles when I’m around her. She makes my life easier oppose to complicating it like you. She’s just everything that you’re not anymore but you use to be. She’s a younger version of you. She reminded me of you 15 years ago”

I’m honestly still processing. It doesn’t feel like it’s real, I keep thinking I’m going to wake up from this nightmare. I feel so bad about myself. Everything he said to me actually made me feel worse than when I found out about his affair