TIFU by insulting a guys micropenis and ruining the hookup

Edited to say: yes, he explained that he was “micro”, that’s how I learned the term. Not a grow-er. 2, of course I’m not going to tell anyone and 3, no he hasn’t texted me back yet. *edit #2: the movie was Parasite

Throwaway, because obvious. This happened last night and I feel so bad and embarrassed. Before now I had no idea micropenis was a thing. Some people are big, some people are small. That was the extent of my penile knowledge. I’ve only had sex with 2 people, so I’m not very experienced, anyway.

This guy and I have mutual friends and have been flirting for months, and he’s so hot with a great personality. Last night after a few of our friends canceled I asked him if he wanted to come over and watch a movie.

He comes over, I make dinner and we have a great time. We have a couple glasses of wine and I’m not quite tipsy, but loose enough that I don’t think about what I’m saying. We move over to the living room to start a movie, and he starts making a move. I’m thinking oh yeah, here we go. Finally. It’s getting hot and heavy and I start making my way downtown because blowjobs are my favorite thing. I pull down his pants and for a minute I’m shocked. He has absolutely no length at all, basically just a head. I think something happened to him and say “oh my god, what happened?!” And he kinda freezes and says nothing happened. I’m confused and he starts awkwardly kind of explaining that everything works, obviously, that’s just his size. At this point it’s awkward enough that it kinda kills the mood and he says “I mean, we don’t have to do anything” and I starts babbling that no no, it’s fine, everything is okay! I can tell he feels weird at this point and kind of sits up on the couch, and I’m thinking I’ve ruined this and he doesn’t want to hook up anymore. I say “are you still turned on? Do you want to?” And he kind of gives me a blank look which prompts my dumb ass to say “I’m sorry it’s just that I can’t tell”

What I meant was that I can’t tell if he still wants to have sex by his body language, not that I can’t tell if he’s turned on because of his lack of noticeable erection. This completely extinguished whatever we had going and he pulls his pants up while I’m trying to explain. He won’t let me talk and keeps repeating that no, no, it’s fine, we should watch the movie. Not knowing what to do I sit back on the couch and we awkwardly watch the tv in mortified silence. Eventually when it’s over (I’m surprised he stayed) he basically rushes out the door.

I texted him this morning asking if he wants to hang out again and apologized for making things weird. He hasn’t texted me back and he’s been on Instagram so I know he’s seen it. I feel so bad! And it doesn’t really matter that his penis is small, I’d still go out with him anyway! It’s not enough to deter me. But I totally ruined it and now he hates me

TL;DR insulted my hookups penis and made him feel weird and now I not only ruined sex but ruined any future chances