'I Gave Consent For Sex I Didn't Want to Have'

"When I tell friends about my experience, they ask why I didn't ask him to turn the car around? Why did I say yes while my body screamed no?

Their questions stump me. I don't have a good answer.

I didn't feel unsafe. I wasn't coerced. In fact, I moved the interaction along smoothly: smiling, participating, even feigning enthusiasm. The truth is, I don't know why I didn't say no. But even after all these years, I often find myself wishing I had.

It was consensual sex, freely given—but unwanted.

It's a murky topic in the world of consent: What happens when consent is enthusiastically and freely given⁠—not under physical or psychological coercion⁠—but the person giving it doesn't really want to proceed? ..."